When a GIRL says"I miss you,"no one in this world can miss you more than that!! Bam-Bam

so...there is this guy. i have known him forever!! he is one of my best friends and i NEVER want that to change. but lately...as in the past few months...we have kinda talked about becoming more than just friends. its something i NEVER thought would even come up. i think about it alot...and i REALLY like him. but he's 17 and i'm 14. we had talked about waiting til i am 15 to go out or do something ya know? so our ages are closer...well...the other day i was hanging out with him. and we had the same conversation that we normally have on myspace...the "do you think we should wait?" thing. i told him it sounded like we were talking about sex and i laughed. but i was just kidding. we were just having fun and joking around with each other. then he got really serious and he told me he wanted to go out with me...but i said i couldn't. he asked if we could be friends with benefits...until june or so (which is when my birthday is) andthen start going out maybe. i was like whatever. then...all of a sudden....we just started making out. like...idk. i had never seen him in that way before but it all seemed right. it was a great day. but i don't want to be used. i kinda feel like he's just another guy. someone that wants just sex. but i trust him not to hurt me. i mean...we've been friends so long i can't even remember. i'm so confused tho. i never thought i would have a crush on him. EVERRR!! lol. i have so many feelings goig on and so many thoughts. geez. lol. idk. maybe everything will turn out for the best!!


<3 lindsey beth